And in a few short hours, a plane will arrive. I should be dying with anticipation, and my heart should be racing like a sprinter (that tripped and fell at the last leg of the race with 100 meters left to go).
But I'm not. I'm skeptical and paranoid. I'm sweating and delusional.
In the past, our weekends were planned out and we knew exactly where we were going, and what we were going to do. I knew that there would be laughter and chatter. I knew that everything would turn out even better than I expected.
But this time, things seem different. She seems distant and disinterested. And I'm left with a feeling of emptiness that this weekend might turn into an absolute disaster.
Maybe I'm over thinking things, and maybe all the fights, and talks, and compromising has left me fearful. Will things end with a screaming match? Will I fall into one of my episodes and screw everything up all over again?
We're trying to rebuild what we lost in the past 2 and a half months. We're trying to put things back into place, and re-lay all the fallen Jenga pieces that are spread all over the floor. 14th Feb 2009 - Valentine's Day, thats when it all started crumbling.
I sure hope for the best this weekend, that what we've been working so hard for will fall into place, and she'll be COMFORTABLE again.
"Keep Moving Forward" - Lewis Robinson (Meet The Robinsons)
Gin "Destroy, Rebuild"
But I'm not. I'm skeptical and paranoid. I'm sweating and delusional.
In the past, our weekends were planned out and we knew exactly where we were going, and what we were going to do. I knew that there would be laughter and chatter. I knew that everything would turn out even better than I expected.
But this time, things seem different. She seems distant and disinterested. And I'm left with a feeling of emptiness that this weekend might turn into an absolute disaster.
Maybe I'm over thinking things, and maybe all the fights, and talks, and compromising has left me fearful. Will things end with a screaming match? Will I fall into one of my episodes and screw everything up all over again?
We're trying to rebuild what we lost in the past 2 and a half months. We're trying to put things back into place, and re-lay all the fallen Jenga pieces that are spread all over the floor. 14th Feb 2009 - Valentine's Day, thats when it all started crumbling.
I sure hope for the best this weekend, that what we've been working so hard for will fall into place, and she'll be COMFORTABLE again.
"Keep Moving Forward" - Lewis Robinson (Meet The Robinsons)
Gin "Destroy, Rebuild"
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